Support Crew
by Amy Carlson
The biggest challenge I ever took involved running 13 miles without any
training. While it sounds on the surface to be satisfying to my ego, if that
were simply the case, it would have been an empty exercise of physical
energy management and quite forgettable. Actually, it stemmed from a desire
to help an extraordinary stranger who seemed to be on her last legs as if
she were a boxer weaving stumbling and about to fall. To help her avoid
surrender, I issued a spontaneous -- and physically devastating -- challenge
to myself that I had no idea I could answer. The whole idea was to get her
to renew her faith in herself.
It all began when my father took me to Hawaii because he was covering a
three-day triathlon called the Ultraman. I got free tickets because I
volunteered to be on a competitor's support crew. In Ultraman, each racer
needs at least three to four people driving a van within a mile's distance
the whole time to provide food, drink, time splits, mechanical fixes and
moral and psychological support. Although the race is long and the pace is
often slow, I was surprised to discover how utterly unboring it was.
This triathlon opens with a 6.2-mile swim from Kailua to Keauhou, followed
by a 90-mile bike with 4,000 feet of climbing to Volcanoes National
Monument. The second day, the bike covers 171.4 miles and includes another
5,000 feet of climbing and as much descending. On the final day, they finish
off with a double marathon on the Queen Ka'ahumanu Highway, 52.4 miles from
Hawi to the old airport at Kailua-Kona.
The crews provide everything from water, food, extra items in case things
break and serve in tag-team fashion as pacers on the run. They are trained
in first aid, but most important, they provide emotional support for the
long race. When you're out there in 85 degree heat, with nothing but hard
sharp lava rock as far as the eye can see, and you know you have at least 40
more miles until you can stop moving, you need a little pep. That was
precisely my job. My sole purpose was cheering on Suzy Degazon of Puerto
Rico. In my whole life I have never seen someone work so hard for something
they know won't bring them glory, but high personal achievement. It was
truly inspiring.
On the Sunday after Thanksgiving, Suzy had covered 39 miles and was
desperate. There were 13 miles left in the race, and her willpower was
fading, her heart was cracking, and her bones were aching. I would
occasionally run a mile here and there in the beginning of the run to chat
with her about various things, or surprise her with a nice cold sweet ice
cream bar, which would cheer her up immeasurably, or make up funny jokes and
skits to take her mind off the pain in her legs. But by mid afternoon when
the mumuku winds rose along with the thermometer, salt began to cake on her
back and neck. She began to stop repeatedly and wanted to quit, but we kept
her going with inspirational thoughts. But with 13 miles still to go, it
seemed all too much. The irrepressible, positive, funny and superhuman Suzy
seemed to be possessed by this new, average, normal person who suddenly saw
clearly the enormous folly she had embarked upon and who said with a
depressed, practical finality that it was too much, she wouldn't go on.
Suddenly we were all confronted by this stubborn, fast-talking, funny Puerto
Rican who decided with the finality of a donkey that her sole ambition in
life was to sit. We couldn't think what to do, our resourceful minds were
tapped, and our pepping-up energy seemed at an all-time low. I was watching
her cry with what thimblesful of energy she had left, and decided to put my
own comfort and stability on hold. I said in as serious a manner I could
render: "Suzy, if you get up and finish, I will be by your side the whole
way. I will not sit in the car once." She looked up at me in astonished
disbelief, without a glint of her usual humor. "You girl better keep your
promise, else you are a liar to me forever more," she said with her 'rico
accent. I reaffirmed my statement with vigor and intensity, and we took off.
Lucky for me, she was already so tired from the past two days that her pace
was slower than normal, so I could keep up with her. Here I am: a chubby,
white, well-meaning, naive, 15-year-old Valley girl with all hope for
humanity, running next to a sleek, tan, muscular woman who embodies grace,
courage, and a love for life that can't be humanly measured. Although I
didn't know it at the time, I later found out that a decade ago she had
wasted away to 58 pounds and nearly died of anorexia, but had picked herself
up and found reason to live with the love of friends and a newfound passion
for diving and endurance sports.
As the miles rolled away along the Queen K, as long as I entertained
her with my huffing and puffing and allowed her to make fun of me, she kept
going. This became the only thing that was important to me: showing her that
if a white, not-in-shape girl could run the distance, then she most
certainly could finish the last eighth of the race. I was nearing the end of
my strength, and felt that I would be much happier laying in a coffin, dead,
when something happened. In those the last miles, we were no longer limping
along on asphalt and blisters, we were drawn onward by a magic carpet of
shared will and enduring friendship. Suzy had now begun to urge me on with
witty humor, and inspirational thoughts. My body was screaming, but suddenly
the finish line appeared like the Emerald City with massage tables, beer,
food, and cheering people awaiting. When we crossed the line, Suzy cried and
gave me a sweaty hug with all her might. I was amazed at the affect I'd had
on her. Did I really run 13 freaking miles for somebody else?!! Yes, I did,
and I was so happy, and proud. I had unselfishly sacrificed myself for
somebody else's dream.
The next days were followed by agonizing pain when ever I moved my
body, and taking care of bloody blisters on my feet. But I earned that
pain, so I hobbled with pride. This was one of my greatest challenges, with
an even greater reward.
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